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My House is Me

Let me talk about my house.   The kitchen feels like my mom. I want to sit at this table – that my grandfather made – and drink the coffee that my mom got up so early in the morning … Continue reading

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Hope is a Flat Rock

Hope is a flat rock All shiny and polished With possibilities. It sits in your stomach Wedged in between Worry and Giddiness. You skate across it Wondering and Wishing Sometimes with double lutzes And swizzles. Despair is sometimes there Flitting … Continue reading

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Pleasures — from 2/15/06

These are the pleasures I have known: The sound of running water. The sound of water splashing in a fountain. The sound of water rushing rippling over rocks in a river bed. The chaise lounge in a beautiful garden on … Continue reading

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Am I a Bitch, or Am I Real?

Am I a bitch,opening my fingersto let loyalty and devotionslip through? Do I shush the methat lingers in trepidationhovering over a panic attackof instability? And then welcome theconfidence of desire and ego And strut in long skirts with mirrorsAnd spaghetti-straped … Continue reading

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Self-Description #1

I am a rosey blush with teal sparks, a curvy goddess that swirls and bops to  a jazzy ballad in a smoky room. I am the number 18, full of beginnings, a roll-top desk with hidden compartments living in a … Continue reading

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That Feeling

That feeling before you leap of exhilaration, anticipation, fear and ecstasy. That feeling when you think it might happen and you’re terrified and shaky and oh so blessed. That feeling when you know it’s best for you but that one … Continue reading

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How Am I Not Myself?

“How am I not myself?” ~ I Heart Huckabees If Art is communication — and that makes sense to me — what message am I trying (or what message do I want) to send? What do I want to say? … Continue reading

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To Be Free of the Me Others need me to Be.

Creation channelsthe Rage in the Cage.Battering, flutteringHeld against my will.Who does the holding?None other than me.Set yourself free!I yell.To no Avail.What’s keeping me?Why do I curtail?Fear.Of.Me.Who Am I?Will I like whatI discover?Set Fire.And banishThe old thoughtsAnd patterns.Screaming to be meTo … Continue reading

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Why I Love Music and Movies

I often wish that I were more musically inclined — either with playing an instrument or with singing. But not enough to actually put the work in for learning and training. But despite this I feel a great affection for … Continue reading

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Sometimes My Kids Take Better Pictures Than Me

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